weird love

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

--Dr. Seuss

Can't Be Mine

so i met this guy a couple days ago. he seemed absolutely perfect for me. He was a really down to earth guy and a real hipster. everything he said was so genuine. we texted all day non-stop. it was refreshing to meet someone who was sincerely interested in what i had to say. He told me he was a "lush and a hopeless romantic and a sucker for cheesy lines." i loved hearing this! he also said he would rather sit at home at watch a movie, drinking a glass of wine and eating ice cream instead of going out and binge drinking at parties. this was also refreshing to hear. he has a great sense of humor and a beautiful smile..

... unfortunately he can't be mine. his heart still belongs to his ex girlfriend. maybe i can be the girl to help him get over her.. but i want to more than a rebound...

the frustrations or finding that special someone...

Only Time Will Tell

I can't take it anymore. The constant arguing and talking behind each other's backs. this kind of behavior is ridiculous. Why do people feel the need to talk so much shit about people. Yes, some of the words that are spoken are true. However, I do not appreciate all the speculation and rumors that are being said. I believe everyone needs to stop worrying so much about the way others live their lives and stop spending so much time trying to point out the wrongs or mishaps in others. Instead people need to just care about their own lives and focus on what makes them happy.

Also, just because you don't necessarily like someone doesn't mean you have to purposely talk shit about them while your with them. Or single them out in front of everyone else. I understand you may not like them but seriously...just talk to them about it.

I'm so sick of this drama. Honestly why can't we all get along like we did at the beginning of the year? what even caused us to fall apart? i miss having our drama free nights. ....i guess only time will tell.

where are the answers

Why must everyone pressure me into hurrying my decisions?
is it not my life? have you not thought that maybe i'm scared to decide?
this choice will effect the rest of my life. if i mess this up i don't know if i can live in debt and regret. Why is college essential. what if i just want to travel the world and experience many things? is a college degree needed to but a plane ticket? the last time i checked i don't think it was. but i am expected to be just like my sisters and follow the path they have already worn.
Am i supossed to just pretend that i am happy with that? I don't think it is possible. it is enevitable that i will have a breakdown from the pressure and possibly go crazy. Since i do have to go, i wish college didn't cost so much. It is basically holding me back from what i really want to do. i would really enjoy going to school in Arizona but, of course, my parents wont support me in that. just like they harldy support me in anything.

I shall ponder this question but never recieve an answer.

Hamster

where is my horse?

howdy yall, i reckon it's time i posted myself another blog. I'm wearin some awfully dandy cowboy boots today, an' i was thunking that maybe i ought to wear 'em more oftin cause they be mighty comfy. well, lets see here now. i bet yall are probably looking to hear sumthin bout the 'ol prayer life. and the truth is is that my horse ran away and took it with him. i've been trying to find that horse for some good time now but nothin's shown up. he goes by the name of 'ol hickory so if any of yall see him could ya let me know.

i'll catch ya later now.

that was sketch.

so prayer huh? yeah...about that. it hasn't really been working for me. i guess you know i haven't prayed willingly since my last blog. but i don't know maybe if I feel the urge i will pray some time this week. i didn't go to churh because i was too tired and i wanted to sleep, i guess that's a stupid reason but i don't care because sleep is legit and once if go to heaven i won't be able to sleep anymore.

This is a video of what i would've look like if i would've gone to church.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sUhUzykSP8