where are the answers

Why must everyone pressure me into hurrying my decisions?
is it not my life? have you not thought that maybe i'm scared to decide?
this choice will effect the rest of my life. if i mess this up i don't know if i can live in debt and regret. Why is college essential. what if i just want to travel the world and experience many things? is a college degree needed to but a plane ticket? the last time i checked i don't think it was. but i am expected to be just like my sisters and follow the path they have already worn.
Am i supossed to just pretend that i am happy with that? I don't think it is possible. it is enevitable that i will have a breakdown from the pressure and possibly go crazy. Since i do have to go, i wish college didn't cost so much. It is basically holding me back from what i really want to do. i would really enjoy going to school in Arizona but, of course, my parents wont support me in that. just like they harldy support me in anything.

I shall ponder this question but never recieve an answer.